My Profound Experience with Integrative Breathwork
Integrative Breathwork and the direct experience of inner work has transformed my life in significant and sublime ways. I have had so many profound experiences, but one that was very magical to me was after my father passed away. My father, who was the light of everyone’s life, passed away in January 2002. We were all saddened and in shock and took care of the “business” of a funeral. I am not sure that I ever really cried, I spoke at the funeral, and went on with my life.
But, a few months later in April of that year, I went to an Integrative Breathwork weekend. I had no idea what would emerge, but my entire experience was about the grief of having lost my father. All of the pain was in my heart and I cried for two hours straight. Then, after the session we draw what we call a “mandala”, meaning inner circle. I drew four green hearts, which formed a “four leaf clover” and then I placed a white diamond in the center. I did not intend to draw a four leaf clover, neither did I intend to place a white diamond in the center, that”s just what appeared as I drew my experience. The image was expressing the feeling of the relief of the opening and healing of my heart. After my session I went home and did what I do everyday, I would take a walk at a beautiful park near our home. While on my daily walk, I started to hear my father singing to me just like when I was a little girl.
The song was: “I’m looking over a four leaf clover, that I’ve over looked before….” Etc. I heard that song over and over in my head every day when I would walk. My father loved life and used to say to me growing up….” You have to be happy honey, you have to love life! You are so lucky to be alive!” I think that no matter how good my life was, I always saw the cup “half empty”. And, over time on my walks, I began to realize how many layers of meaning lie within those lyrics. The message he was trying to convey to me was very meaningful to me on so many levels. Then one day, my friend was with me on my daily walk.
At one point we decided to sit down. I was telling her about the song and wondering if four leaf clovers even exist or if they were just a myth, because I had never seen one! While I was talking I was gliding my hand through, what I didn’t even realize at the time, was clover. I then looked to my hand and I suddenly felt like I was in a “another reality”, something like a Disney animated movie…..a huge four leaf clover appeared and right in the center of the four leaf clover was a white diamond! The four leaf clover was just like my drawing from the breathwork months earlier! I was in complete awe and knew that my father was communicating with me directly.
Over the next twelve years, before we moved away, I found five more four leaf clovers…never when I was looking for one or when I would try to go back to the same spot that I had found the original one….only at the times when I would be asking for my father’s guidance through some difficult time and the four leaf clovers found me….. in all different areas of the park.
The magic of Integrative Breathwork is that the veil becomes thinner and the experience lives on, it doesn’t end when you leave the workshop. And, our time here on earth becomes such an amazing adventure. I know what my father was trying to convey to me, that we overlook the magnificence of our experience here on earth! We will have difficult times, but that is part of our process here. But, there is so much to be in awe of when we actually understand the bigger picture. This is my interpretation of his message to me…
I’M LOOKING OVER A FOUR LEAF CLOVER
By Emmy Rossum
“I’m looking over a four-leaf clover, that I’ve overlooked before,
(WE OVERLOOK HOW LUCKY WE ARE TO EXPERIENCE THE MAGNIFICENCE, BEAUTY, AND ADVENTURE ON EARTH)
One leaf is sunshine,
(THE JOY WE HAVE AVAILABLE TO US)
The other is rain,
(THE DIFFICULT TIMES AND SADNESS WE EXPERIENCE)
Third, ’s for the roses that grow in the lane,
(ROSES REPRESENT LOVE AND THE OPENING OF OUR HEARTS)
No need explaining, the one remaining, is somebody I adore.”
(THE ABILITY TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER)
I’m looking over a four-leaf clover, that I overlooked before!
THANK YOU, DAD!
I no longer overlook the magic of life here on earth. It truly is a miracle... all of it, the joy and the pain and the experience of growth, and most of all, the love!
I LOVE YOU!